A NEW DAY FOR EVERYONE

The World around me

2007-03-02T20:43:00.000+08:00

The new lunar started. I would say things so far have been kind to me. I have been adjusting well to an instructor's life. And i must say i am beginning to like teaching and i can finally feel how teachers felt like in my very own small way. but recently I have been thinking abt my past present and future.

In the past, I started out doing small CIPs in sch's cca. then i proceed on do doing big scale ones in JC. It only daunt on me the true meaning of cip only after JC. I saw cip as a way of clocking hours and maybe an addition. its until when i had the time to reflect that i realise that CIP has its purpose and now this purpose have grown so much that i had not realise and expect it to have.

Currently i consider it GOD's purpose and plan to have me landed as a medic and then an instructor. I see it has i am continuing CIP even in army. but for a greater purpose. helping others. I came to realise that I am sort of here to help ppl around me. And i think that will be be my sole purpose in this life. that is to help others. And so i will help others as much as i can. =)

The future is still uncertain for me, though i am very sure i will be helping others after army. I have learnt to see life in alot of ways. and tinking for others though not my instinct but will try to cultivate it. I have seen alot of shows lately and news. I cant help but consider the other aspects of life. Besides just being able to find a job and get rich or successful, I sort of see the other aspects as well. Happiness, Friendship, Family, self sacrifice, etc. The so many small things that ppl overlook and they are in pursuit of wealth and success. I always wanted to get rich. but these days, i have been thinking if its the right thing to do; or should i say the only thing to do. hmmm......

ALI and LONG BEAN

2007-02-12T10:46:00.000+08:00

Well, first of all i have to apologise. My key board back home is screwed up. Certain letters cannot type at all or it lags. LOL. Anyway, IPC is over. Now i have the license to teach. Haha... Well have to update u guys on certain things. LOL:

1) Will be taking a course in MDIS. Advanced Diploma in Mass Comm. Life will never be the same again. Not so boring. finally! LOL

2) Japanese is improving everyday. Yea. Can read certain words le. GAMBATTE!!!!!!!

3) IPC left me with two nick names: ALI and LONG BEAN. Guess u all can noe why. As for ali apparently they say i talked to much, always "ali" ppl, so yea got such a nick. Nonsense actually but who cares. LOL

Anyway, these weeks watch alot of dramas and read alot of articles. Just sort of daunt on me that life is indeed so damn short and too important. Must treasure every min and do good for the rest of the ppl around me. LOL. I will be everyone's gui ren. LOL. And i will do everything with a clear conscience and no regrets. thats my resolution for the new chinese new year. Hope its not too big a resolution. yea. hee hee. Anyway, not suppose to use army comp for this. GTG! ja... Big jon out!

2007-01-21T18:56:00.000+08:00

hi guys, big jon is back again. IPC tires ppl out but i learn alot as well. Just that within this period of time things are happening and i dun really have time to blog. haha. CDF visit is coming and rehearsals are in progress or so i thought. eventually it became redundant. haiz. Wat to do? Big fish eat small fish, small fish eat tiny fish and tiny fish vaporise. think i am the timy fish la, though my ht doesnt say so. lol.

army stuff i wun comment le. later go DB, but alot of things been happening, frens at our age seem to be dwindling. And i jus realise a stunning fact, frens tht we have cannot be called our frens. its only acquaintance. We meet for a while (few yrs) then becos of this society we drift, becos of the way we speack we drift and disappear from each others radar. Frens now are act used only ppl who are v close to us aka good frens. lol. I am gald i still have alot of frens. So dudes and dudettes i dun give up on you, you peeps dun give up on me man. ya.

Weekend was kinda fun i guess, had BBQ in the rain. LOL. Thanks May for your hospitality and Ding, great planning. LOL. so much food so lil ppl. funny sia. but hey glad tht u all had a gtathering like this. Its RAIN tht we have to blame. dun even need to pay entrance tix he came upon us. kaoz. LOL. And right after BBQ i went to a pub. Weijia, i really think one barrel of beer is really alot. But i love it. LOL. Glad tht we still kept in contact. haha. Anyway got to do my lesson plan le. cya guys. thanks for a great weekend.=)

A whole new experience

2007-01-08T20:56:00.000+08:00

well this week started out on me being a trainee again. IPC. Instructor prep course. As the name goes its to prepare me to be a good instructor. But it gives me thought on how a trainee felt again. So many a times as sergeants we forget how a trainee felt and think. We overlook all these and impose much things on our trainees. Its really a pity i guess. Trainee and Sergeants shld have a connection, such tht both can work things out well. Well, lets hope i can get beneficial skills from this course. =)

refer to tagboard

2007-01-04T20:05:00.000+08:00

well this is a reply to passerby. I have to admit the turn out for the 30th is poor. 31st do not noe the seniors wells. I give u tht. I say sorry to tht. But hey why in the world did terry mention tht 60 ppl were coming for the bbq. and only 20 odd came. And furthermore 31st did confirm tht a large no of ppl were coming. its not abt the interaction bit noe. Screw it. WHo wants to interact? But spare a thought for ppl booking the chalet and ordering the food. Why did the 31st in the first place want to sent the sms and inform others not to tell us. You want to have a party? go ahead. No one is stopping you. I am just disgusted abt the fact tht you guys seem to be having secret parties not letting us noe, becos? hurt our feelings? we are much stronger than that. Psst.. dun tell them u noe. Hey think abt it. Is it tht nice or shld i say mature and not selfish? Up to you all wat u want to think. I can be an ass, watever. My feelings and opinions still stand and i think its sound. And passerby, if u wan to comment, i welcome that. But hey show yourself. I dun like to be exchanging opinions with a person in the dark. Wan to comment, be proud abt it. Show urself.

2007

2007-01-03T21:10:00.000+08:00

Domo.... NOX is here again. LoL. Happy new year to one an all. Today is my first working day and the only time i am free to blog abt my last few days, crossing the new year. haha. SO it will be a long entry, addressing to certain ppl. LOL.

Well i spent my new year at the council chalet. I thought lots of ppl will turn up, but it din. Alot of commitments from the 30th and 29th. Wat i am pissed off with is the 31st. well an sms to the 31st read something like this - ( hey i got a party, etc...[pls dun let the chalet organisers know]) i am sad to hear such things. But let me be direct abt such things. If the 31st do not wish to meet up or interact with their seniors, i am fine with it. BUt pls be truthful. Such ways just show how childish and selfish u guys are. In which i always thought u were so. Lets hope you guys dun learn the hard way through society.

Next is to address to my dear trainees in basic medic course. I noe alot of you do not want to be medics. But seriously this is the most important and useful skill that one can learn from army. You can apply this to civilian life. How good is tht? furthermore I wan you guys to think positive. This way you guys will be happy and can excel in the course. Remb the story abt the man and his golden pebbles. Life is like this act. Everything we do are act golden pebbles. think abt it guys. In addition to that i would not say that you all rebel to who ever u all dislike in army. You have to understand this is the army, a great amt of regimentation must be in place. That the army. So pls pls follow it. Its the pride and duty tht one can feel as you guys proceed through the army. I noe you guys will be wondering wat the hell am i trying to get to you. The answers will come in time. Be patient and stay positive for the time being. I will come help you all as much as i can. good luck guys!

Next will be abt myself. LoL. army has done great things to me. Change alot of me. To a more mature and responsible young man. And i would say thoughtful and compassionate at times, due to the medic course. Looks like unkonwingly i have mastered the basic of bushido. LoL. anyway I have abt one yr 1 month plus to ORD. Its long but i noe i am going to enjoy it. FINALLY. haha. resolutions i will leave tht to myself. haha. anyway jus to let you guys noe i passed my driving test today. haha. full pledge legal driver. LOL. anyway i got to go. enough for today. see you ard my blog. Ja ne..

Thought tht kills

2006-12-26T21:46:00.000+08:00

The end of the year is coming. 2006 is coming to an end. I shld say my army life so far has been kind to me. I ended up in medic HQ as a medical specialist, an instructor to many. I like this job, in fact my main thing in my life now is this job. Teaching and interacting with others seems to be my joy and love now. LOL. Begin to finally like my army life. Finally...phew... I just pick up japanese as well, so i dun bore myself at home. I shld say this is much to my parents surprise, cos i din just say i will pick up. I place something into action. haha.=P But life seems to be much more of a routine now. Frens are less i would say. Less interaction with them, sometimes i wonder if they are still alive. Hardly even go out with them. But there are frens who are v on. I salute u for tht. But recent days I seem lost. 31st dec 2006 is coming closer and closer. I noe i shld enjoy this day u noe. Cos i will be in chalet. But it also make me recall a sweet and pianful memory tht was supposed to be buried 6 months ago. 31st dec 2005, someone impt left me to a foreign place. Lol. I was said tht tht person was leaving, but its for tht person's benefit. 6 months later tht person walk out from my life totally. Shock and despair was my reaction then. BUt i buried it. However in recent days, these memories flood my mind again. the good and bad side of it. I just wonder why? after all i got over it, why am i still hanging on? why do i still blame myself? why do i still tear in my sleep? Just shoot me! haiz....

Merry CHristmas!!!

2006-12-24T22:32:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas to all to peeps out there. Well, today is christmas and we shld all go tell each other how much we love them and blah blah blah... Haha. Well, today i had a party at my Grandma's. Its not as grand as last few years. But its the company tht matters. Ate alot. Growing fat. Which i hate to be. Want to be fit not fat. training i think will commence after my driving test on the 3rd of Jan. Went to drive today. I thought i was good. haha. So says the instructor. Hope i can pass on my driving test day. Anyway, i had been planning for my new year ahead. A year comes and goes. Just to scary to even think abt it. LOL... Wanted to go catch midnight sun the movie tmr. But doubt i will have anyone to go with. So we shall see. Yea. Coming friday is COUNCIL CHALET!!! man! tht will be fun and i noe tht it will not be cancelled like my pri sch;s one. COS OF POOR TURNOUT! Cos i noe council ppl are all v on! haha..

Anyway, the friday tht just passed. I had no chalet. Yes! but i had a small gathering with the pri sch guys. And i shld say 2 girls. (Si yun and Pei li). I must say i am happy and fortunate to have you guys with me tht night. Dinner and drinks. Sounds simple but yet proved so much. It shows the close knitted small grp we have left. And the effort we are ready to put in to come. Classic example i have to mention is si yun. Yes, she slept late. But still she came down to meet us. She studies in aust. She could give the excuse of unable to click with us like some other peeps we noe of, but she din; she flew down to see us. She is attached. So obligation shld go to her bf, spend time with him. But no, she came to see us. She can split the fact between bf and frens. I am v grateful for a fren like her. Totally in debt to her frenship. LOL. But of course, some of u hardcore peeps out there who cannot make it. Just let u noe, we understand and we hope to see you next gathering.

Well, they said christmas is a time for sharing and confessions to ur loves ones. I do have a confession. But i think its not appropriate to say it to tht person. So i guess i will just have to bury it deep within me and die with it. Sorry to disappoint you guys, no story to tell for u ppl. LOL. Watever it is, merry christmas to all and may all ur wishes come true. And hopefully u all have been good children for santa to visit you ppl. LOL. Bye... NOX out.

chalet is out!

2006-12-21T13:35:00.001+08:00

Hey guys, my chalet is cancelled. SOBX!!! So sad. Well, apparently the turn out is small. Its ok I understand some of us got committments. But there are some who jus give weird reasons not to come. Think they shld be condemned. But its not up to me to decide. I dunno man. I love chalets. It a time where ppl gather and update each other and interact more through out the night. To me being with my frens is everything la. LOL. I hope the council chalet next week can go on smoothly. DUN PS ME AGAIN!! Chalet jus went bust man. not angry or anything. Jus one long word - DISAPPOINTMENT. Oh well, i gtg, have to get my trainees to poke each other. LOL. IV here i come. Will blog again tonight... Fruit for thought will come again soon. LOL. Cya peeps. Big Jon out!

First day on JOB

2006-12-18T23:06:00.000+08:00

Well, today was my first day as a working instructor. Still not very used to scolding ppl, throwing weight ard. LOL. =P Was kinda irritated by this warrent officer. But all well we aren't suppose to mention anything abt army. so shhh.... I am just pissed la. But talked it out with my fren, now feeling better la. LOL. Hopefully tmr will be a better day. Tonight is a strange night, feeling abit sick, think cos running ard in the rain too much. Nvm, i shld be fine i hope. Got to go rest, cya guys...

Fruit for Thought

2006-12-17T23:25:00.000+08:00

Fruit for Thought!!!

Guys, friends are important to all of us. Aint it true? But wat if one day you realise that you have no true frens at all? Wat happens when events surrounding ur frens are known by others and not you? Doesn't the world just darken around you? *esp for an only child* - where frens are extremely important. Why is it that ppl you noe for 6 yrs are not close to you. and you noe nothing abt? Do you still consider them friends or jus faces?? Why do some ppl just refused to come for gatherings? cannot clique? too busy to meet? are these excuses or the truth? well some maybe, some no...

Maybe the above perspective is too self centered? selfish thoghts? its always other ppl's fault not urs. wat if the person makes the effort, takes the initiative, but to no avail... is it still his / her fault? still too self centered? Or did he / she fail to see those who are supportive nearby? maybe? maybe not?

And finally, is finding a true friend tht difficult? one life is so short, maybe zi ying zhen de nan qiu...Hmmm.... Some fruit for thought! Wat do you peeps think?

One Busy night with a new perspective.

2006-12-17T09:16:00.000+08:00

Well, last night was indeed a v busy night. But i have to add that its real enjoyable for me to go through it. First i got to go to IVAN's BDAE PARTY!!! Man i tell you its great to see all of you. (tht refers to Ivan, Ching, Kai Pin and fren, Gughan, Donovan, Benedict, Terry, Teresa, Charissa & BF, Jeremiah) Its been so long since we did things tgt. (WAZZUP included) LOL... Well, let me say it again. Happy Bdae Ivan!!! and thanks for everything. And the path down to habourfront, its not tht dark. haha.

Then after that i head striaght for MOS. Its was Shawn's Bdae also. He, weijia, and a few of his frens were there. LOL. I was suppose to enjoy myself there. In which i did. Guys, Room 54 is really good. Smoove is good too, but its too squeezy. haha. I need space to move man. Anyway, Shawn the Bdae boy Knock out. Got drunk, Puke, everything la. LOL. Wonder how he is now? hmm... So we all have to take care of him for a while. Oh well... Shawn, if u CANNOT drink, dun chiong too much. LOL.

But ytd something else struck me during clubbing. I realised I am sick of this kind of clubbing life. A few reasons though. 1) No space to dance 2) Cant talk to your frens cos music is too loud 3) Cant enjoy the drink 4) No ones like retro other than me. LOL. But really I still love clubbing but now am sick of it. LOL. CONTRADICTION. But anyway, will not club for now and for a long time to come. LOL. Besides ppl now club for the wrong reason i think. Smoove is crowded with ppl; not those who love the music, but those who love grinding. Guys there are like desperate souls. Goodness. Well, dun look at me guys. I seldom go into the dancing area to dance. I stay at the side and chill. LOL. Well i jus think its kinda wrong and weird la. Oh well, am sure at this moment of time some of you are doubting wat i say. Choose wat u want to believe in. OK i got to go.. need to get some rest. Need a nappy. LOL. Cya guys. JA!!

Back with a NEW look!

2006-12-15T12:07:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps, sorry that my previous blog is always so slient. Always no updates. Sorry arh Jean *nightmares from an old tagboard* Anyway I'm back with a different look and attitude. This blog is designated for me and my frens. Not for anyone anymore. The past is over, a new day for everyone. Hope you guys like this new outlook. haha.. Enough abt the updates, actions will speak louder than words. LOL.

Well, just to update all of you out there, now i am a medic specialist, an instructor now. Cool huh? LOL. Will get to go home everyday. WooHooz!! Aint tht just great? Year is ending soon with two chalets to attend. Finally a time for gatherings, it just gets my heart pumping. Adrenaline rush! haha. Well, i am an only child and you guys *friends* are just like my siblings. All so important, though you guys are always so busy.=( Nvm, me being kind will forgive you'all. haha.

And to that perfect person i talked to, i just hope you are fine and all is well. Here's something i found. think about it. =)

" The easiest thing in life is failure; the hardest is overcoming that. Keep your head up high and keep on walking."

Alright guys, enough of crap from this tall guy here. Big Jon heading out. JA...